Thanks, Heather. I wish she was able to do more "Hannah" stuff, but this STUPID disease dictates our lives. Either Nate's too out of whack for us to handle something without him (or with him behaving appropriately) or it's a cost thing. I'm glad she can do this.

I'm sort of bummed out this morning. DS hasn't been sleeping well since the med changes. He is also getting more testy and aggressive. I know I have to give it time, but I feel so beaten up from all of this that I'm mad. I know the Lithium was not good for him long term but I can't let go of being mad that we are headed back into the storm. You know?

I rescheduled his tdoc appointment for this morning. I started getting him up at 5:30 so he could be ready to leave by 6:15...everytime I went into his room he was just sitting there. He finally showered and again, just sat there. I had to stand in his doorway until he was dressed and the whole time he was yelling at me! Serioulsy?! He knew he had to get up and get moving. He has no concept of how long it takes to get places or what needs to be done before we can even leave the house. I have it all written down on a schedule, but he is so unable to see beyond his little relm of time that he is incapable of doing what is asked! AARRRGGHHH!

Want to know what he was focused on? Getting his "lucky" necklace on. It's a mood necklace we bought at Sea World this past summer, which oh by the way has been in my jewelry box since I picked it up off of the floor a week after our return. He didn't even know where it was until Hannah found it rummaging through my jewelry box yesterday. All the sudden, the world was going to end if he didn't have it on and measure his "mood". And to make it worse, he pretty much just sat there griping about it. He didn't even make any moves to actually locate it and get it on.

Life will go on....thanks for letting me vent.

Susan image

Mom to :
Nathan (13); BiPolar I mixed without psychosis, ADHD, PDD-NOS Focalin, Celexa and Risperdal image/image/image/imageDepending on the moment.

Hannah (8); healthy and happy (recovering from her High School Musical addiction!) image


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