Yes, I am actually wondering if the Provigil is causing her to be more focused generally. I asked her and she has agreed that now that it has built up in her system, it is easier for her to organize her thoughts. I haven't come home to a big mess. She has been trying to keep things neater and it seems to be working. With her eating slowing down and her weight loss, her self esteem has improved a bit as well. In addition to all those things, she has a boyfriend now, Brandon, yes the one from school who she disappeared with. He really seems to like her a lot which is a new thing for her. Usually she is the one chasing. He has told her he wants to see her on her bday and has gotten her a present. He also shared with her that he was feeling depressed lately over the death of his dog. They seem to have a pretty good relationship for 16 year olds. He has come over twice now and she told him he would "have to" meet me, LOL. Tonight was the second time he came over and he stopped to say hello. The first time, before he met me, he told dd, "no problem" about meeting me or the grandparents at any time. He was a little shy but he's really a nice kid, somewhat misguided at times I think, but he seems to want to do well now. They seem to have a good effect on one another. The most impressive thing about him is that although he does not drive, he has had his friends drive over here with him. This, to me, shows a true caring about my dd. In the past, boys would want me to bring her to them, LOL. I always have told her, if he really cares, he will figure out a way, etc.

Usually with dd's friends, especially boyfriends, she would want to keep them away from me so I don't "embarrass her" but with Brandon and his friends she has even talked on the phone with them in my presence. In the past she has never done that. The first time they came over, I talked to his friend who was driving, giving him turn by turn directions and he wasn't weird about talking with a mom and they chatted with me when they got here and said how they knew Brandon, etc. Brandon lives with his grandparents and is apparently very close with his family including an uncle who he works with. He does construction work for him. I'm not sure what the deal is with his parents although he does see them, he does not live with them.

Of course I still worry about the sex thing. I have a call in to the gyn for an appointment. I worry with the extra weight coming off, that dd will feel more like having sex but that is something we will have to see. I'm keeping the discussion going, my eyes and ears open extra wide. She has been forthcoming on that subject thusfar.

School has been out and she had one project she failed to do. While she didn't have the confidence to ask for an extension from the advisor/teacher, I did ask on her behalf and she agreed to accept it late. Then dd actually did it, shock of all shocks. I'm so glad. I'm sick of going to bat for her and then she usually embarrasses me. If you know what I mean. I'm sure you all do.

Two of the girls here tonight were two that did not want to hang out with my dd before because they felt she wasn't careful and was too wild. It seems that things have changed for the better. Both those girls are good students, have jobs, goals, etc. It seems to be rubbing off on my dd as well. She is changing...I think the new alternative school has done wonders as well. I see so many changes and hope they are lasting!


Mom of 20 years old dd
Diagnosed BP-NOS (09/05), updated to Paranoid Schizophrenia, Consider
BP I Manic Severe (12/11), Borderline Personality Disorder (12/11)
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