Rayni:
Thanks for emailing me to look at this. I have been avoiding most everything lately. I guess it's called survival. Anyhow, I'm sorry for not checking in. I appreciate all of your prayers. We made it through mother's death and her funeral and now are trying to get back to reality . Her piano was delivered to my house on Friday along with the music cabinet that my dad had built for her. It was a time of mixed emotions -- joy at having the things most precious to her and sorrow at the finality of seeing them in my home. I sat up Friday night until late and just stared at them and cried. Yesterday and today, Mother's Day, I picked out some of her music in the cabinet and sat down at her piano and just played and played. I find a lot of solace in playing. She taught me to always invest my feelings in my music and so I did. Boy did I. But I know that it has always been an extremely healing thing for me to do.
Thanks for all of your prayers. So far, my kids are doing very well considering. My dd who was hospitalized for depression a month ago helped me bath mom and was with her when she passed. Because she works in nursing home, she was comfortable with all of that and was a big help to me. She told me she finally realized that Grandma wasn't coming back as she watched them bury her. Maybe this will help her with suicidal thoughts. I sure hope so. Maybe she'll realize that it's not like the movies.