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Well, I saw Matt at church yesterday. I hadn't SEEN him since June 12 and hadn't talked to him since June 16. It was awkward to say the least. Remember I didn't go to the softball game coz I didn't want to see him. So I sat with dd and her dh and Noah. I was directly behind Matt and his new family. So about 1/2 way through church, he leaned back and put both arms behind the pew. I leaned up and rubbed his arm. He turned around and half smiled and got up and came back and sat beside me, put his arm around me and kissed me on the cheek. He said he didn't know what to say to me. First thing he asked was why I didn't go to the ball game. Told me he loves me. Then left to the nursery with dd. I cried, A cried and so did her mom. At that moment, the minister showed a video and asked that the lights be turned down. Thanks be to God, I needed a dark minute!

So after church, A told me he agreed to go see a new pdoc. This is a new one who I couldn't get him in to see. Her mom works for this man. So I'm not sure when the appt is, but she will take him. I thank God for A right now. God's hand is woven through this whole thing. It is amazing. Of course it all hinges on Matt's willingness to continue to make right choices.

So mid-afternoon, Matt called me. He didn't want anything just to tell me something nice about the neighbor he lives beside. Then he was off. I guess it was just to make sure I'm still here. I'm nervous to talk to him. I'm afraid I'll crumble beneath his demands. I need to pray for strength. I still want him to go to academy. It's the best thing, but he isn't going. He says he is going to high school. He'll never make it. But so far, he's been clean for a week.