Yea, that was a blow beneath the beltline and it sure hit hard. Inside, I was knocked to my knees.
He told me that I ........pretend to be something I am not. I portray myself as a Christian, but I'm not. He is not my robot. He is not J and S (his siblings). He's different and that I can't handle that. He doesn't like dsolder because dsolder thinks he is better than Matt. DSolder doesn't like him because he is adopted. If I hadn't put him in that phosp. It haunts him and now he is having trouble finding a girlfriend because he was in the crazy hosp. He can't have his friends here to chill because we are so uptight. He was just be a normal teenager and we freak out. He didn't drink or do drugs so much but made up what the lady at the phosp wanted to hear so he could get out. We are just trying to get rid of him. He will do what he wants to do. He would leave but he doesn't have anywhere else to go. He gave the Wii to someone who would use it. We set the stupidest rules. The principal is in his business. She has caused him problems. The SW has no business filing a petition on him. She won't set foot in this house again because he will tell her to get out. She needs to stay out of his business. If I would relax, we would get along. I can't handle my own problems (meaning me) and I call the police to help me. If I would handle my own problems, we'd be okay......
Do I need to go on? This all happened at 1:30 this morning. He also told me that "maybe we don't need a computer". I don't know what that means because the last time he said something like that he took the Wii and was gone for 3 days. If he steals the computer, I'm calling the police and he will NEVER live here again!!
I've had about all the mental/verbal abuse I can stand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm beat down.







- Mom to ds JJ age 8, bp, selective mutism, gad, sid


Still, the military
might be a good option for Matt. It would give him the sense of manhood and adventure that he wants, but he would have to follow the rules and would probably
start appreciating old fogey mom and dad.
I hope he wakes and lets you cuddle him soon. I miss that part but not the rest. We could fix them
then most of the time. Better than now.

